God has been speaking to me about the importance of redefining normal for myself and swimming against the flow. Both of these concepts are a bit scary for me, mostly because Im a blender...not the kitchen aid type, but a 'fitting in with the status qou'. It's a little embarrassing to admit, I mean who wants to be a blender! It is true though.
It's something God is changing in my heart and life though, in small steps. Tonight's step was a funny one. As I was getting ready for church I spotted this bright nail polish on my dressing table that I haven't worn in a while, so since I had a few extra minutes I decided it would be fun to paint my nails. Amazingly enough the painting part went pretty smoothly, which is not always the case as I'm no pro, it was the finished result that was the problem. Once both hands were lovely and painted I suddenly realised how BRIGHT this pink was. By this stage I was now almost late to leave for church but I was determined to remove the nail polish before leaving. Fortunately I had some cutex remover left in my room, so I soaked the cotton ball and proceeded to scrub at the nail polish...again...and again! It would not budge! I have no idea why, but this nail polish would not come off!
At this point I was freaking out a bit, I mean here I was forced to arrive at church with hands painted so brightly I could probably signal down a plane if needed! It was then that I stopped and God dropped something into my heart. I heard God asking me if I liked the colour on my nails, to which I had to answer yes. The problem was not the colour but the attention it might draw. In that moment I realised that I had a test to pass. It was such a small thing really, but God was definitely giving me a taste of 'stepping out' and 'swimming against the flow'.
I went to church with my nails like that and no-one ever mentioned it- hilarious! I know that God is going to continue to grow me in this area, and I am excited (and nervous) to be grown in it...to God be the glory!
In His Grip
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